Rains: Goodbye is the hardest part

Kansan columnist reflects on last game in Allen Fieldhouse

I was disappointed Monday night when I was not asked to give a speech with the other seniors on Senior Night. After giving my heart and soul to the University of Kansas for four years just as Russell Robinson and the others had done, I was excited and prepared to take the microphone from Max Falkenstein and tell everyone just how proud I was to be a Jayhawk.

OK, so I knew I wasn’t going to get to give a speech and that nobody would have listened if I did, but as I talked with friends before the Texas Tech game, it dawned on me that a special and unforgettable portion of my life was coming to an end. Even though I plan on graduating in December, Monday night was the end of an era. It was probably the last night I will cover a game in Allen Fieldhouse as a member of the media.

Working for the Associated Press, I had the privilege of sitting in the best seats in the house for every home game for the past three years. My job was to give statistics and notes to my boss and then to interview the opposing team’s coach and players after the game. Whether it was irritating Bobby Knight two years ago for bringing up KU’s big rebounding margin, or being told by Kelvin Sampson to ask a better question, I had the thrill of interviewing some of the best sports figures of our time.

As a boy growing up in St. Louis, I always knew that I wanted to be a Jayhawk. But little did I know that choosing Kansas over Mizzou would wind up being one of the best decisions of my life. As members of the media, we are supposed to be un-biased and not root or cheer for a certain team. And as much as I bleed crimson and blue, not cheering was harder than you might think. After a Sasha Kaun lay-up and foul against Texas last year, I pumped my fist into the air on press row out of instinct before quickly realizing it and acting as if I was scratching my head so that nobody would notice.

While my friends camped out for hours and hours just to see the games, I was eating free food and sitting two seats to the left of Dick Vitale. Lou Gehrig once said in his famous speech that he considered himself the luckiest man on the face of the earth, but after my time here at the University of Kansas, I don’t know how he could be any luckier than me.

For four years, I watched game after game and moment after moment as my team, the Kansas Jayhawks, battled in historic Allen Fieldhouse. I try to explain to my friends and family just how amazing the passion and tradition of Kansas basketball is, but unless you see it for yourself, you don’t really know.

There are hundreds of memories that I made during my time in Allen Fieldhouse that I will never forget, but the best may have been during the pre-game video for the Kansas State game last Saturday. As the student section jumped up and down and fans yelled and screamed, goosebumps surfaced all over my body. As the music from the movie 300 glared over the loud speakers, for one of the few times in my life, I literally had chills. At that moment, I realized that I truly was going to miss being in Allen Fieldhouse for the rest of my life. And I made a promise to myself that night, that I will come back for a game at least once every season, because the passion and tradition that was instilled in me by this town and this university is something that I just can’t eliminate from my life.

As the final buzzer sounded following KU’s thrashing of Texas Tech, I realized that it was the last time I would ever be sitting in that seat again. As I listened to the players speak about what being a student at the University of Kansas meant to them, I did what any unbiased media member would do. I shed a tear.

And not because I was sad it was over, but because I was thankful that it happened. Anyone that has spent time in Allen Fieldhouse knows just how special of a place it is. It’s not just a place where you go to watch a basketball game. It’s a place that changes your life.

—Edited by Madeline Hyden

 

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